Raymond

Sob.... sob

2009-08-03T02:15:00.000-07:00

A few days back, she asks me why I'm not happy... she say "you had most of things you want, why you still look like not happy"...

I was thinking.... maybe in the eye of the people, I had what I want, but, this is not true... I'm not happy.. because...... Been suffering from this for years..... Why like that..... feel wanna cry....

Sometime, I feel very suffer... and sad.... ! Haiz.... sob sob...

Long Study Break...

2009-08-02T08:35:00.000-07:00

It's been one week plus since the last class..

About 1 week later, I'll be going for exam...

Until now, I still havent started to do any revisions... everyday, I spend the most time playing games, watching movies.... and of course 'Thinking of Someone'....

And I'm going to do it start from 2morrow... Study one topic each day, about 5 or 6 days will be finished... Luckily this time I only havet osit for 2 subjects, so quite relax....

Ironically, sometime, relax is not a good thing, you may let the laziness to take over you if you are too relax.. HAIZ..

Anyway, I'll go according to my study plan... I hope I can do well in my coming exam...

Beginning of Sem 6..

2009-06-11T09:30:00.000-07:00

After 3 weeks of holiday, is time to return to the college. This week is the 1st of the 7 weeks. I took only 2 subjects, which are Promotional Management and Study Skill in English. The PM is quite okay for me as the lecture is quite clear and the most important thing is the lesson can be easily understood.

In the other hand, the SSE is not as interested as I thought. Maybe because the class has too many students and it is quite noisy in the class, so I cant even listen what the lecturer says clearly. Moreover, the lecturer voice is quite small. HAIZ.... Today, she taught us about the basic grammer. I hardly pay attention in the class.

Generally, I feel very happy this week, because I have already made it. I'm really happy that I finally achieved what I have to do on the first day of the week. Perhaps you might not know what I'm talking about, but there is only 1 person who knows that. Anyway, thanks for everything.^^

12.57 am

God Bless you???

2009-05-30T07:35:00.000-07:00

Recently, my friend ask me a question. "Why wouldnt I go to church since I'm a Christian?"

Then I think, is been a very long time since I step into church, by my calculation, take away my time in National Service where I'm 'forced' to go, is about 8 years.

"Do I really need God?" I asked myself. To be honest, is not about boredom, is because God doesnt inspire me much in my life, I believe more on myself. I do everything on my own effort, I never pray before exam, I never pray before dinner... yet, life still goes on...

In my point of view, God did exits in a unexplainable way. But, I think God is rational and fair, God will only bless those good person. God bless people not because they come to church week in week out, often do prayer... If you are a bad person who often does bad thing, no matter how often you go to church, do prayer or even 'donate' millions to the church.. Personally I do not think that God will bless you. If God does that, I do not think is fair.

For me, I never go to church, never pray, but I'm confident that if I'm a good guy, never harm people. God will still bless me even I didnt go to church. God is fair.

Therefore, no matter how hard my friend trying to tempt me to church, I would not go. I'm sorry to make you dissapointed you my friend.

I did believe in miracles, but this word is so powerful. Because of this word 'Miracles', some people decided to wait for miracles to happen instead of work harder to create their very own miracles. That's why people go to buy Toto, Magnum. Is not wrong to buy, they are buying a chance. But, for those people who wait for MIRACLES, they buy TOTO frequently (everyday) and wait miracle to happen. That's why those TOTOs company are so lucrative nowadays. They are absolutely out of their mind, they do not know how much money they have 'donated' to the TOTOs company. They could have used those money to do other useful thing.

I know that gambling is absolutely prohibited in all religious. Realiticaly, how many people have actually followed that...

Some people actually pray very hard for promotion, better pay, but do you really think that God will grant your wish without doing any effort to earn for the promotion. I do not think so. Believe me, some people actually think like that, sitting at there and wait God to Bless him.

I believe only people who actualy put an effort on it will only get blessed(Promotion), even you never pray for it. God is fair.

All the content above is only my point of view.

What is Failure..?

2009-05-25T20:36:00.000-07:00

What is the word 'failure' really means? You won't fail overnight, you won't get up the next day an realize you gain weight. It is an accumulated of mistakes which you have done or made day by day. These mistakes will eventually lead you to failure.

A person does not fail their exam because he did not study the day before exam. .

An individual who fail the exam is caused by his attitude such as he never pay attention on class, not even once do the revision. These are mistakes he did day by day which leads him to failure. Some people actually knew what is their problem, but yet there are no corrective actions being made. They still repeatedly doing their mistakes. Continue to live their life with failure. That's what I call HOPELESS people, wasting their precious time doing mistakes.

Sooner or later, they will know their mistakes could prove costly. They could end up looking back to their mistakes and say 'I should have, I shouldnt have'... Damage is already done, you did not did your part to mitigate the damage. You only have yourself do blame. Absolutely PATHETIC...

Failure often seek excuses just to make them feel better or feel not guilty. But to people who actually know the true meaning of failure, they will see that as an opportunity to learn. Learn from the mistakes and make it better. You won't become successful without failure.

Holiday starts now.....

2009-05-18T07:43:00.000-07:00

today is the last day of the exam week.... 2day, the paper is very easy... I only use 45 mins to complete a 3 hours paper.... it reflects how easy is it...

Now, I can take a couple weeks break.... yeah... at the same time, I'm anticipating to the next month, because I'm waiting for the answer from someone......

In this short break, I'll be doing an on-going business project with my friend.... hope can get it done as soon as possible.... come on... you can do it....!

Thanks yaa....

2009-05-13T03:42:00.000-07:00

We went out that day... we had a long talk.... we had fun at there....

I fetch you back and you purposely left something in my car.... haha...

Then I go back and look, it is a gift... is a Eiffel tower... and you left a short note to me too... about the notes, that's is private and confidential... haha... I was so happy, because this is the first time I receive a gift from you.... I like it very much. I'm sorry to make you worry oso... haha...

Thank you..... ^^

Right or wrong?

2009-05-02T00:49:00.001-07:00

I think for a whole night yesterday, I was on a vacation in Port Dickson. Isn't it right to let you know the truth..? What are you thinking now.. I really do not know... and I started to get concerned about this. what to do next...? I'm like floating in the middle of the sea with no one there... =.=

Exam coming soon...

2009-04-21T05:51:00.000-07:00

Today, I saw some of my friends started to find some information from the reference books... That time, I watch the calender, only I realise the exam is around the corner. the exam will start on 12 of May. is around 3 weeks from now.

I have to start to do revision... althougth is not as though as last semester, but I still need to start early. Because I hate last minutes work.! In my point of view, you wont able to memorise anything if you study last minute. because they are too much information needed to memorise in a very short time... If you never pay attention in the class + study last minute, I bet you will suffer... sleepless night.. burn midnight oil and so on....

By the way, I really thank to friends for sharing their information with me... they are such a helpful and kind people.

my Ipod

2009-04-21T05:47:00.000-07:00

yeah... I get my very own Ipod shuffle... is blue in colour... cool....

Yeah, finished all assignments.. but.....

2009-04-15T06:45:00.000-07:00

Today is the day of summition of last assignment. I feel relax and I can now focus on my final exam...

Despite that, i dun deel happy, cos there were many people upset me this few weeks.. arg... not happy at home, and not happy at outside either... moodless to do anything. Frustration, furious and dissapointed... is what i feel in this 1 or 2 weeks... why people can be so irrespondsible, brainless... did I deserve more respect...?

I hope an angel will appear in front of me to teach me wat to do.... huh...

I had enough...!!

2009-04-08T04:14:00.000-07:00

I was so angry today, but I still manage to control my anger... because they keep talking about me and A in McDonald's... I can remember how many billion time I tell them... '' not.... I didnt... no... ''... they just cant stop saying...

If they were saying something else, I'm still ok.... but, I'm particularly hate this... and the way they say, really disgusted me.... If is not... means not lar... I do not want to create any misunderstandings... why still keep saying that... I have already very unhappy at home... during school days, still want to listen to this rubbish rumours... Fine... I really had enough...

Has the laziness taken over me...?

2009-03-25T23:24:00.000-07:00

HAIZ.... I skipped the OB class again... even there wasn't any presentations, I think I'll skip that class... I skip that class because it is very boring... furthermore this subject doesnt need to sit for exam... 100% coursework.. that demotivates me from attending that class...

Is that an excuse or I'm too lazy to attend the class...? I have been skipping this class several times already... I reviewed what have I done in this 3 months... I can see one word.. that is lazy... lazy in doing everything..., demotivated... huh... what am I doing....!!?

There is something I can cheer about is that I worked as a partimer in Midvalley for 6 days.. what I get not only money... and also I learnt the way to communicate with different kind of people.. that is something good.

2.34 pm..

Missing..... HAIZ

2009-03-21T23:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, it was a busy day.... I have to them to carry those 'junks'..... my hand so tired... and at night... went to my friend house to celebrate his 21st birthday..... gosh.... so fast... 21st years old already.. it was a BBQ party.... I had a good time at there.... we dismissed at 1.00am....

Today.... I woke up quite early... and jump straight to lunch... I was so moody... unable to concentrate in doing my work.... my coursework.... I am half way through already... but I have no mood to continue to do at all....

Probably, I'm missing of someone again.....

2.15pm....

I need a rest...

2009-03-17T01:38:00.000-07:00

huh... yesterday was the last day of digital fair.... in Midvalley... I was working at there as a partimer for 6 days... sell computer accessories.... like Anti-Virus software, Logitech product and Buffalo's external hard drive... Here's my booth...

My leg was so tired... because I have to stand there for about 9 hours plus.... so exhausted..!!!

After the fair... I really need some rest... Later, I need start doing my coursework.... is Marketing Operation coursework... the due date is 1st of April.... about 1 week plus....

It should be done in 4 or 5 days....

Watchmen....

2009-03-07T03:00:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I and my buddy went to a movie... the movie is called Watchmen....

My comment on this movie: boring, not nice, absolutely rubbish.... I thought it was a superhero movie, like Spiderman, Superman... but... it wasnt that case...

never have I feel sleepy in the cinema... this showed that how good is that movie... If given another chance, I would rather spend RM9 in McDonald's rather to that movie...

All my friends also said that the show is absolutely boring...

Boring.. boring and boring....

7th March 2009, 7.07pm

Finally... got internet liao....

2009-03-06T04:19:00.000-08:00

This few days, i was so frustrated because I was unable to connect to the internet.. I called to streamyx several time.. it took about 3days to fix my internet connection.... so inefficient..

I was so boring at home without internet... so, I watch animation drama this few days.. that drama is called 'Initial D'. A racing animation drama... I have a whole set of that... from 1st to 4th stage...

I did sleep quite early this few days, I slept before 12am.. because I have nothing to do... bored.. somemore I was still suffering minor headache and coughing... under medication... HAIZ

But I did woke up in the middle of the night just to watch football match, ManUtd vs Newcastle Utd.. hehe.. I was so happy because Manutd came out winners. They gone 7 points clear from Liverpool and Chelsea.. and the most important thing is they have a game in hand.. haha

Finally, my internet connection was restored at 4.00 pm 2day.. I was so happy, and straight away went to download drama... check mails... and ..... chating with friends...

That's all for now......

6 March 2009, 8.32 pm

Gathering last Sunday..

2009-02-25T04:05:00.000-08:00

Last Sunday, I had a gathering at Times Square.. Gathering with my primary schoolmates.. Actually they say meet at the entrance on 2pm... but I only start driving to there on 2pm... haha... I reach there 20 mins late... luckily I'm not the latest person...

There were around 10 persons.. I was unable to recognize all of them... just know a few of them.. cos I never met them for around 8 or 9 years... some of them changed a lot.. some of them look like just the same....

I was so shock because one of my closest friend turn up.. I was like... 'wow, she gone pretty..' I was hardly can recognize her....

We went to a coffee shop there... have a cup of beverage.... some of them still studying, some of them were waiting the STPM result and some of them were working...

The gathering lasted about 4 hours... then.. we share our contact no. to each other.... finally, went home....

The traffic was so suck.. it took me 40 mins to reach home...

Btw, on the 27 FEB, I'll be going to Penang with my friend... I cant wait for that day..

Operation Valkyrie...

2009-02-18T20:51:00.000-08:00

Yesterday.. me and my friends went for a movie. The movie name is called Valkyrie... Act by Tom Cruise.. Is a real history movie..

Back in the world war 2, when Hitler was the ruler in Germany. A group of people, I call them Anti-Hitler tried to assasinate him... and form a new government to stop the war. The operation name is called Valkyrie.... but, they didnt succeed.. all of the them were excecuted... they were called traitors of the country.. and Hitler were barely harm..

This movie is quite okay for me.... and I think for those people who do not know about the German's history will say 'this movie is boring'.

19 Feb, 1.00 pm

Cough and flu...

2009-02-06T06:31:00.000-08:00

Shit... Recently, cough and flu comes to visit me again... Especially at night... They (Cough and Flu) really are good friends of mine... never leave me alone, always around.... Don't know whether to laugh or cry... When Mr. Cough arrived, Ms Flu comes as well... without fail... I guess they are husband and wife.. Cannot be separated. Perhaps now is CNY, they like to come to my place.... Hope to get rid of them soon....!

6th February, 10.37 pm.

Happy Chinese New Year..

2009-02-01T00:39:00.000-08:00

I just came back from overseas... so fast, Chinese New Year almost come to the end...

Same like last year, I had my CNY holiday in Brunei... staying in my bro's house.. for one week.

I was quite relaxing at there... Free from stress. I swim at there with them... We hold up an house warming during CNY... Many people came, got Lion Dance as well... surprisingly, burning fire-cracker is completely legal at there...

We drink alcoholics, I drank Vodka... 40% alcohol. haha.. luckily din get drunk at there...

Besides that, we also went to visit people house... I remember one of my bro's friends has 2 Porche and a Ferrari car at thier house...

haha.. I drove my bro's RED HOT PORCHE... It was so great....!! I'll buy myself a sport car in the future..!!

1st Feb 2009, 4.53 pm

New Year... New Objective....

2009-01-23T05:14:00.000-08:00

My Primary Objective of this year:

First of all, I want to prove a point to my sister that I can get many A's in my exam too... I want to improve my score... Haiz.. pressured...

Secondly, it's been a very hard year staying with my family, a lot of arguments, issues arisen. I'm very unhappy at home, sometime I'm very hate them! I would try to improve the relationship with my family.

I'll make myself more presentable.... and of course, improve my English Language skill..

Lastly, I want to improve the relationship with all my friends... and try to 'correct' the negative side of me...

Secondary Objective of this year:

To stay away from the negatives rumours, which I hated it very much... Perhaps, my coursemates would know what I am talking about...

I would love to find a very lovely, trusted 'girlfriend'... I would wait for the opportunity... Will I ended up this year as 'single'...? I do not know.. haha..

To find a part-time job... probably I'll start to looking into it after Chinese New Year...

23rd Jan, 9.33 pm.

Thanks my friends....

2009-01-22T08:38:00.000-08:00

I would have been posted this few days ago, but I decided to wait until I get my BD photos.. and I just received my BD photos from my friend...

On the 18th Jan...

I was told that my friends will celebrate with me in the evening.... so, I went to have lunch with my sister... and she belanja me eat steak... haha... Then my friend called me, he said that he will come to pick me up at 2pm... I quickly called the bill and went home... it was 1.40pm...

I waited for 5 minutes, then they came.... I was brought to Pizza Hut...

I was so happy as many of my friends turn up on that day... We ordered quite a lot of food and almost unable to finish it... but at last we manage to finish it.... I was so so so full.. my stomuch was full of different foods...

Later, on of my friend brought my Bd cake... and he sang the birthday song to me... he sang so loud and everybody in that restaurant was looking at us at on kind... our table become the center of attention.. kinda embarrassing.. hehe...

then... they gave me the present... I was so surprise... what they gave me is....

Is a very nice picture of mine... is something very different... I never thought they will give me that....

Althought the celebration was a simple one, but I would like to thank them for the celebration and of course also for the lovely present... I really appreciate it... Thanks guys....

23th Jan, 1.07 pm

Today feel moody....

2009-01-21T05:03:00.000-08:00

Haiz.... today, I'm not in a good mood... coz, I had stomach-ache this morning... probably I did not eat dinner last night and indirectly, it affects my appetite... During lunch time, I was having lunch with my coursemates at I cafe. I really do not know what to eat during lunch time... I ordered nooddle, and finished it reluctenly... and I rarely talk today.. so moody...

Is really not a good day for me... I was not concentrating in the class, feel sleepy and no mood to listen to the lecturer.. today, I hardly learnt anything in the class... Haiz....

Btw, today is the last class before entering to Chinese New Year period.... I will be having my Chinese New Year time at overseas... I'll be 'flying' to Brunei this Saturday evening.... until next friday... gonna miss all my friends....!!

21st Jan, 9.15 pm

My Early Birthday Gift ^^

2009-01-13T04:40:00.000-08:00

Haha, I receive an early birthday present from my sister... really happy...

It is a Hugo Boss fragrance.... Opss.. BRANDED... I can use it during Chinese New Year lor... ^^

At last, I'm looking forward to this Sunday.. Big Day for me....

13th Jan 2009, 8.47 p.m.

This weekend showdown... THE RED Devil vs THE Blues

2009-01-08T00:22:00.000-08:00

This Sunday, it will be the the ultimate test for Chelsea and Manchester United. Neither one of them want to lose.. The match will be held at Old Trafford, Manchester.

A win for the United will close in to Chelsea to just within one point with two games in hand. Chelsea had the best away record so far, they just drop 4 points away from home. But, their proud away record could be ended at Old Trafford. United had the best offense and defense record at home, they score 20 goals and only conceded 4 goals, and there are still unbeaten at home. Please note that only 2 teams have managed to score at Old Trafford, that is Hull City (4-3) and Newcastle United (1-1).

United would be quite happy to sit 7 points behind Liverpool with 2 games in hand as Liverpool would need to come to Old Trafford in the second half of the season. In contrast, Chelsea would desperately want to beat United to keep in touch with Liverpool. Because Chelsea still have to visit to Anfield and The Emirates, they cant afford to drop to much points.

Yhis match will be very tied, and looking at the form, United have not conceded a goal in the Premier League since Samir Nasri scored the winner for Arsenal back in November 2008. Ferdinand and Vidic will respondsible to stop Anelka and Drogba. Therefore, I predict a narrow 1-0 win for The Red Devil.

I would be happy enough to see United win.. haha..

8th January 2009, 4.22pm..

Back to College next week...

2009-01-06T21:33:00.000-08:00

It is been almost a month without touching anything related to college... I really miss all my friends there. Next week on Tuesday will resume back to college.. It is my 5th semester, has 14weeks... I feel that time really flies... and flies very fast... I still remember the first day I step in to the college, without any friends, excited and feel a bit nervous.. It just like not long ago... Haiz...

One thing did bothering me now is that I have to make up my decision in choosing my Degree programme. Should I choose Business and Marketing or should I go for Business and Management..? I still havent made up my mind.. .both also look like the same. Just 1 or 2 topics different.. What should I choose..?

New Year, New Look, New ME^^

2009-01-02T05:14:00.000-08:00

Haha, Today I went to Dye my hair... let the pictures tell the story...

Before...

After....

Titanic

2008-12-27T07:59:00.000-08:00

Recently, I watch a movie, it is called Titanic. It is a very old movie, I still remember I was still a primary student when I first watch this movie..

This is a very famous movie, it is a real thing. Titanic did sank in 1912.. is 14 of April to be precised.. A ten story high ship, it was the largest ship human have ever made, hit the iceberg and it took about two hours for the freezing water to fill up the ship and eventually sank the ship.

In this movie, I saw people being selfish, irresponsible, fear. I was wondering why the ship crew did not see that coming, was it cause by negligence? In my opinion, YES. Why there wasn't any binoculars for the crew.. without that, it is impossible to see things further in front of the ship. By the time the crew saw the iceberg, it was too late. There was not enough time for Titanic to turn or stop..

At first, all people think that the it is impossible to sink that ship, but Titanic is made of steel, it can be sank. By the time that the architect of Titanic says 'Titanic will sink', it means it will sink. After that, I can see people panic, all of them are desperate to leave the ship. But to make things worse is that, there were not enough boats for people on board. The boats can only save about half of the people on board. It was a big mistake made by the Architect of Titanic, why didn't he makes more boats on the ship. He may have saved more people, and there would not be so many people buried with Titanic into the frozen Atlantic ocean. Of course, Jack was one of them.

Even though you are a great swimmer like Michael Phelps, you never stand a chance to come away alive, because the water is so cold, it just took one or to minutes to take your life away. I can see people screaming for their lives. I saw the priest praying at the last few minutes.

I was touched when I saw Jack lost his life just to save his beloved one Rose. He could have used the floating wood to save his life, perhaps, this is called Love. It was Jack to inspire Rose not to let go and keep living on. Otherwise Rose would have been died. Only 6 of the 1500 people saved in the water including Rose. Only 700 people were saved from the disaster. And it was a great movie!!! Worth to watch...

Christmas Day

2008-12-25T05:47:00.000-08:00

First of all, I would like to wish you all Merry Christmas..

2day, in the early morning, I went to play football with my friends.. The football session ended at 9am, then I and my friends went to 'mamak store' nearby my house to have breakfast. I remember I had a Teh Ais and a piece of Roti Telur as my breakfast. After 1 hour, we all dismissed.

After I had my shower, about 2 hour later, I and my family hang out to Midvalley. The journey to there took about 45 mins. Thank god we are able to find a parking place. Then we went from the 7th floor to ground floor to find a restraunt to have out lunch. It was a shock, every shop were fully occupied, and the whole floor was crowded. Nandos, Sushi King, KFC all were crowded. At last, we decided to go Delifrance there. We waited for about 15 mins outside the shop to wait our turn.

After that, we begun our shopping spree.. the shopping were very crowded, I was thinking of going to PDI to buy things, but there were so many people inside there, then I go to Padini Authentics, but still very crowded. so I ended up skipping many shops. Haiz... Sien..

One thing did caught my eye were the Choir group at The Gardens. I stop by there and listen to the Christmas songs. The song was really nice.. I never listen to Christmas Songs for quite some time. haha.. another thing is the giant Christmas Tree at Midvalley, two words to describe: 'Fantastic and very nice'.

AT last, I still manage to grab two clothes from Espirit before I went home. haha... At least I didnt end up not buying anything...

First day back to Football!!

2008-12-13T20:00:00.000-08:00

Huh... Finally, I finished my Exam.... N I have i month holiday..

Today, it is my first day back to the football field, wearing my Umbro soccer boot... It's been 2 years since I actually touch the ball... and its been a long time since I actually went to do exercise..

i woke at 6.45am, i just slept for 3 hours.. and I reach to the football field at 7.00am.. Pretty fast isnt it? The football field just nearby my house, just have to take a short walk to there... After I reach there, I begin to perpare myself, wearing my soccer socks, soccer boot... When all my friends arrived, we start to warm up and practice..

Then, I start to take a couple of free kicks, take some shots. I feel that my legs are quite heavy.. perhaps is because I have been out of action for a long time.. The free kicks are poor, the shots are not good... and I can feel my stamina has dropped massively... I need to retrain them back...

Despite those negative things, there is positive stuff out of it, I can still dribble the ball. It might not be as good as a couple years ago, but, it is still 'okey'...

When I reach home, after taken shower, my leg mustle started to pain... especially my right leg as my favourite foot is my right leg.. I hope my leg will get well soon as next Sunday we will have another game..

Well, I have been missing in action, and it is time to make a come back...!!

How...?

2008-12-09T04:14:00.000-08:00

There is something bothering me in this few days. There are many uncertainties. I have been thinking about that for this few days..

I have been asking myself, should I go for it? Or I just give up the opportunity...? If I choose the first one, if I lose, I lost a lot.. But at the sametime, I can gain a lot, and can be extraordinary.. In other word, it is very risky..!

If I choose no. 2, life still goes on, and having just an ordinary life.

I'm like standing at the T-junction, thinking whether to turn right or to turn left....

Arsenal...

2008-12-03T04:16:00.000-08:00

Last week, they were flying at the heaven... until today morning, they drop back to hell.. What I'm saying this is that Arsenal lost to minnows Burnley.. Manchester United would send a thank you message to Burnley, because they are the favourite to win the trophy. Perhaps, Tottenham would have little chance..

Sounds crazy isn't it? A team who beat Chelsea at Stamford Bridge eventually lost to Burnley.. This is not the first time, remember they beat Manchester United at the Emirates? They fell to Aston Villa at home a week later.

Arsenal have a great chance of reaching to the final, because 2 of the BIG FOUR have been shown to the exit door.. But, they blew it..

The only silverwear they could dream is the FA cup now. Primier League, too far to chase. Champions League, sounds impossible... They could end up yet another year without trophy..

Happy, but a bit dissapointed..

2008-12-03T04:11:00.000-08:00

Finally, I have gone through the 3 toughest subjects. It was a relief...

But, I was a bit dissapointed in today's exam... I struggle in one of the question. I know is not much, but the marks at there could determine whether I can score or not...

I wish I can do better...

Ms. X

2008-11-25T05:02:00.000-08:00

Tuesday, 9.02pm...

Recently, I cant concentrate to do my work.. this is because someone always came through my mind... I shall call her Ms. X.

I never feel like this before since July 2007... To make things worse is, sometime, her face would appear in my dream.

I often ask myself 'What am I doing...?'.. Yet, I cant come out with an answer..

I always thinking of her no matter what I'm doing something..

Haiz... perhaps, I think too much....

Sick...

2008-11-22T08:11:00.000-08:00

Today is not the good day for me.... I fallen into sick.. and the sick could not come in a better time... this is because I was planning to do revision... then suddenly fallen into sick... coughing and fever...

So, today, I did not manage to do any revisions... Well, I hope to get well as soon as possible..

Omg, Exam is coming up... New objective....!!

2008-11-19T05:42:00.000-08:00

Haiz.... my exam will start from 1st day of December... 5 subjects in total..

I started to feel the heat... and it is getting hotter and hotter....

the subject that I fear the most is management... It is quite challenging..

THis time, my target is to score at least 4 A's... It would be brilliant if I could achieve more than that...

It would be brilliant if I could achieve more than that..

Come on.... you can do it Raymond!!!

After exam.... I can go makan Ice-cream with my friend.... hahaha....

Playing with the super car...

2008-11-16T05:13:00.000-08:00

Look, I am sitting inside the red Hot Porche 911... this car can go 300km/h!!!

Even in high speed, the car still steadly gaining a lots of grip... unlike other car, at this high speed, other car will not get as much grip as this car...

Perhaps, this is the difference between a sport car and a normal ordinary car..

The fastest speed I experieced inside this car was almost 300km/h... I was speechless because never have I travel that high speed in four wheel. The sound produce from the Porche engine was fantastic... It boiled up my blood.... Vroom....

SAD.... Dejected...

2008-11-07T06:49:00.001-08:00

Today, I feel very down... sad... and feel want to cry... why always like that... leave me alone.. what is 'Harmony'...... This word has been missing from me for a very long time.... =.=

Achieve target,..Number 1..

2008-11-05T04:33:00.000-08:00

Back in many years back when I was still a form 3 students. I was frustrated for not getting the no. 1 spot in my secondary school. I was no. 3 in form 1, no. 4 in form 2 and no. 4 in form 3. No matter how hard I try to 'memorise' or study... I just could not get there. In that time, I was very angry with someone, because she often compare me with her other relatives. When I start my form 4, I tell myself that I want to be no. 1. I want to shut her mouth up..

Somehow, I achieve what I want 6 months later... Perhaps, I should thanks her rather than angry with her, is kind of misfeeling. I was surprise when one of my rival came to congrate me.. I thought I have not done enough to get the no. 1 spot.

Then, I set new another target, which is to be the first male student to get the first place in SPM. Because I found that recent years that only female students got the no. 1 spot. I was determined to be no. 1. In 2006 and 2007, I manage to keep the no. 1 crown until I graduate. It was a success.. And I feel good being no. 1.....

First time...

2008-11-05T04:26:00.000-08:00

I have a lots of first time in my life. First time driving a car, first time dating a girl out.... and more. Well, this is my first time writing blog.